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:::Thursday, December 15, 2005:::

[Long Long No Updates?? Here I go again @ 5:03 AM]

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Well.. I know its awfully early to be awake.. but i'm glad i'm up early.. this is the normal time to be awake in the army..

you know guys? I have so many things to say out but i haven been writing... to pour out feelings that i have inside which needs to be addressed... haiz... maybe blogging is something good for me.. after all... i need to address this feelings somewhere..

Had a dream last night, I dreamt that i was a SJAB officer again training cadets again... seems that my heart and soul still belongs there... haha.. I imagine my Grade 5 rank as well.. haha... If i'm given the chance to be in SISPEC or OCS , I will take the scope more seriously... But its all dependent on god now..

Frankly, Its been 3 months or more since I have actually blog... During this time, I was trap in pulau tekong.. Serving my 3 months BMT Service.. Its finally over last week (6 dec) with the POP. On reflection, Yea... I screwed up pretty badly for my chance to be in OCS or SISPEC. I also allowed myself to conduct myself in an unseening manner/ Fall out too easily, no effort placed in training.. I nearly suffered from depression over there.. I find that my relationships with my bunk mates were so superficial as we know that we are together for 3 months only. My buddy was never able to get along with me, we belong to two different worlds and it also created alot of emotional havoc for me...

Life as a recruit is actually not bad.. they cannot takan us like mad as we are still in the learning stage.. Improve physyical and mental capabilites which i think that if had placed in more effort, it would have done wonders for me... there was all this mental straining activities like 2 hrs upper limb training which by the end of the training .. you would not have a single ounce of energy and your arms would feel like cup noodles.. or those road marches (24 KM ) ... shiok but hellish... I cannot imagine those who did 72 KM ...

I'll stop here now... Need to get something done... Part 2 comming up later..