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:::Friday, January 14, 2005:::

[3 days... @ 2:15 AM]

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Hmm.. Internet still down.. so Hardly got online. Even if I was, I needed all the bandwidth that I can get from this 56k modem.. so that is the reason why I did not update...

Well... Been going to class on time this week.. Still feeling very down.. Its going to be the 3rd month soon and I still seem no different from that day...

I decided that I'm not going to have any communication within that matter untill I settle all the things. I'll show that I meant what I said.

Mr Tham spoken to me.. He thinks I should stop school for this semester.. I wonder if I really have turned out this bad... Maybe I should consider.If I really cannot finish my FYP, I will consider to Stop school...

I really need to find my reasons.. Find my reasons to survive in this world... Where can this answer be... Apple... help me by taking care of me for this few months want?? hahah.. you keep saying got nothing to do.. ... I must be mad...

I wonder if I having tumor in my head.. I haven been able to concentrate for quite some time already and worse still.. everytime I feel like concentrating, I feel that same spot keep hurting.. Like there is something pushing againts it.

San dong and Lizhi sick, Nic working, Daniel studying Jun hao studying, I studying .. Like that only left Samantha to go for training tomorrow.. Well I have planed out the training schedule and have prepared a guideline for all the instructors to follow. Hope all goes well..

I had this funny dream today.. I dream of someone that I used to have a crush with.. Well.. Recently She has been around me.. and in that dream.. Its like she say she knows that I like her and she like me but we dun show to each other... hahah... damm witt.. its just a dream.. Even if she really likes me(which can't be cos we really not meant for each other unless one is willing to do alot of changes) , I don't think I can accept... Buts its a fun dream... heee... stupit uncle woke me up... grrr...or not can dream longer...hahah.... *pish myself*

I found a book tittled :Burn Brightly without burning out: Hmm.. just a book that i need to answer myself..I read it and felt...hmm... No difference from Yong wei... I am going to repeat reading that book everyday to get me motivated...

Her homework is more important than me... Well.. In certain sense, I know its more important but I used to be that same importance... now... i'm not and I still can't get over it.. That is why some times i really hate talking to her... But oh well.. I can't say anything much anyway... She already made her mind.. what Can I do...Wait till than loh