:::Wednesday, March 30, 2005:::
[Its going to be a long blog @ 2:18 AM]
-=:::ThE ReVoLuTiOn Of WiLsOn...:::=-
Well.. This is the new version of my blog.. as promised.. but abit late right? i mention that it was to be out by mid march.. but due to my Final year report... It had to be delayed....
Well.. its been over a week since I have blog.. I wonder anyone reads my blog anymore.. I know one person does not read my blog anymore.. To her.. I might have already become someone distant... Someone she would not even think about anymore.. You know how powerful her impact is to me, I could even dream of her breakup with me.. and it keeps on getting worse... I have never dreamt of breakups before.. but she is the first person.. Well, she has been my first in alot of things also.. I wonder if she ever remembers...
Good news... NTU accepted me into EEE(Electronic and Electrical Engineering). Well.. I'm not too sure that is what I want. I'm hoping to apply to SMU to take Business Information Technology (BIT) Well... At least I got into Singapore U.. Car Car here I come.. hahah... :)
Exams ended on monday.. .I wonder was it I panic or was my body suffering from the reaction from the Milo that I had in the morning.. I have this problem.. I can get "High" with Milo.. my body will tremble onces the Milo effect wears off.. It only occurs to certain time and certain condition with certain brands of milo.
So many things to write.. yet nothing is in my mind now to write... As I listen to Gundam Seed OST, River. Oh Ya.. the blog skin was created with inspiration with that song. For me to do Websites, I need music to do it. It gets me to the write mood and activates my Creative mood.
Today my Grandma got admitted to hospital for high blood pressure and chest pain complains. haiz... She is already 72 yrs old. I cannot afford to see another death in the family.. Please god. Let her be able to carry her great grandson.
Strangly I think my family (Mum's Side) has serious psychological problems. My Grandma gets into fights and gets paranoid very easily. My First Aunt is "MAD" and my Second Aunt always thinks she is fat or she is sick and always have migranes. Haiz... My mother, a very anti-social person. Wonder what have got over everyone.. Will I end up like that as well?? Hope not.. but only time will tell..
The problems is that my grandma always fights with her neighbour about the noise made by her neighbour's 3 kids.. (Not to mention that they are indians (the older generation are rather racist)) . At the same point of time, she refuse to move over to my place or aunty pats place.. I mean.. this problem can be easily solve, for the short period of time, if she moves over to either one of the place so that it does not agitate her condition.
I'm still very confused with what is life and the future that I want to do. I want to be a paramedic but it will effectively take up the youth years of my life and who knows.. I might be out of job by 40-50 years old as this type of job requires physically fit people and not old people. being at that age, it would be hard to find a job and you would have already wasted almost half of your life.. Damm..
I want to play.. I want to enjoy my last 2 months of freedom. It should have at least 7 more months but due to NS, I only have 2 months.
I want to help Yue Hui.. She has been like me.. very stressed for the past few months and I want to help her to relax but I have no idea how to do so. We have so much difference in what we call relaxsation..
She took a photo of me and god.. I look like shit. I noticed I gained alot of weight and really looked white .. Guess I need to do something about that.
