:::-::-: ReVoLuTiOn Of WiLsOn ..I wIll sUrvIvE.. :-::-:::

:::Tuesday, December 14, 2004:::

[She has made up her mind... @ 1:39 AM]

-=:::ThE ReVoLuTiOn Of WiLsOn...:::=-

I have nothing now... Nothing at all. Faced with this bloody Blog and the 4 walls of my room. I don't know how many morning she wants me to wake up feeling afraid, lonely.. I have said whatever I can say and she is not going to change her discussion. I don'tknow how much tears she wants me to shed before she lets me repent.

I'm like a prisoner, One that when into jail and can't get back my world cause of hate. I got no right to hate her. She has all the right to hate me. All I wanted was to give her a surprise and all I got is MOTHER FUCKING AIR!!!! I GOT NOTHING BUT AIR MY ASS COULD EVEN DO BETTER THAT.

My friend called me, told me somethings that once I heard it. My world just crashed... what can I do, She hate this type of stuff, and I have to settle it. We end up fighting. I always lose.

She told me that few words that I have been avoiding.. RIght into me... Like a knife into my heart :" FROM NOW ON, I'M AM NOT GOING INTO ANY RELATIONSHIP, YOU HAPPY"

I have faced countless people to give up. faced her asking me to give up. But this is the point where I cannot take it anymore. I really lost it. I got nothing to lose now. No one can understand this pain. I'm Sure this is even worse than what she felt now.

I'm really at my ends now. I really don't know what to do now... I did what ever I can. I tried to dun say anything and try to move but we are not getting anywhere... the barrier is just to big now and there is no way I can make it if she is not going to move . I know she tried to start the conversation. Buts its all YA, NO, HAHA and PENGS.. and NOTHING MUCH.... and etc... you call this conversation?? I call this talking to the wall, All the input is comming from me and nothing from you. She has nothing to share with me? She has nothing to tell me?? What am I? a Toy?

Some one JUST KILL ME!!!!!! SOMEONE JUST LET ME DIE!!!! I'm really going suide now.... One more step to the edge and I will be over it... Just that one more push....