:::-::-: ReVoLuTiOn Of WiLsOn ..I wIll sUrvIvE.. :-::-:::

:::Sunday, December 26, 2004:::

[Boxing Day... @ 2:17 PM]

-=:::ThE ReVoLuTiOn Of WiLsOn...:::=-

What boxing day, I didn't even recieve any presents on christmas day... other than the one I bought for myself... (Pizza..) I can't box pizza right?? Oh well.. .Sucky Christmas... I hate every minute of this christmas.

I get to get moving... Yong Wei mention that if I ever wanted to get out of this shit... I need to take the first step of getting out ....

Going to have to replan my plans for the next few months. I need to get out of my comfort zone.

I can stand strong to anything other than matters to heart. Why??? A leader...affected by feelings..... Will cause the rest to suffer as well... URGH!!!!!!!!!!!!!

SMS her like hell lao she still not replying my sms... What does she expect from me... I know I didn't tell her about the camp... Who knows what happened during then... I know lots of thing happen on my side but I haven had a chance to talk to her yet... For the whole week... Haiz......... Heard she went out with HIM..... asshole.....

Anyone here tried out loving someone but the person just won't love you back?? She was different.. She was loved.. Just that she didn't feel it... and expect me to know... hell would I know... I'm not a computer who can read your mind...

I don't want to think about it.. I Just want to settle my book,clan,SJGroup,FYP and all others. Who needs love anymore.. I be stone cold untill NS over... I be stone cold still someone wants me again... I hate love... I hate you...I hate everyone who hurt me... I hate this life... I hate this world...

I need to find a restart button to press and get restarted again.. The only way to do so is to find a new pillor of support. But the more I look for it, the more I feel desolated...

Plan Plan plan plan plan ... Success is making a initivative to plan, calculated risk and success.....

Where is my fighting spirit... Where is my fire... I'm in total darkness... I need the light... Darkness is engoufing me... I losing my strength every day that i Speak of...

Can anyone be my light at this dark times???