:::Thursday, December 09, 2004:::

[Is This the end? @ 1:18 PM]

ThE ReVoLuTiOn Of WiLsOn...

Woke up being disturbed by my sister and mum. Nothing much I can do or say as the computer is in my room. I had a nightmare last night, Even in my dreams, pei bing is also avoiding me. I'm really losing it. I can't work without her support, i cannot do anything... even talking to my friends is so hard now. I just wish the world would just eat me up and froze me so that I don't even have any of this miserable feelings. I just have no idea what to do . I promised her to drop everything (my Work, My SJAB, etc... ) if she comes back to me but even now all those have been drop, she still does not want to come back to me. She keeps telling me its too late. I know i cannot say much cos i really neglated her and she had, even this neglation, supported me for one whole year!!! I really want to make it up to her... Why is it so hard for her to understand that it take someone to lose someone so dear to him to understand how much she meants to me. I'm So sorry Pei bing... Nothing that i can say now will ever change your mind... I want to show you but you keep ignoring me.why... Why... WHY!!!!!! URGH!!! Someone Just kill me ... I dun want to have feelings , I dun want to have this feeling... sob... sob... :(

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